A word about courage

Hi there. I'm Karen C.'s cousin Nikki G. I'm a seeker, a maker and a lover of life and I'm thrilled to be a contributor here at Shiny Objects!

Being brave does not mean that you never feel scared or weak or lost...it just means that you keep going anyway. 

"You're so brave."

"I admire your courage." 

I'm currently in treatment for breast cancer and I hear these words a lot these days when I talk about my cancer journey. At first I was taken aback by these sentiments. I don't feel like I'm doing anything special. In fact, I'm doing the only thing I know how to do and that is to put one foot in front of the other and hike my way through this. 

Breast cancer treatment sucks. In the aftermath of my first chemotherapy treatment, I never wanted to walk back in the treatment room ever again as long as I lived. But going back for the next treatment was the next step in my journey so I kept walking.  On another day Miss Independent Introverted Me had to ask a stranger to help me put the heavy bag of cat litter in my cart at the store. (Ugh! Please no!)  But that's the thing about courage. It's not in the feeling, it's in the doing. Courage isn't about the magnitude of the task, it's about doing what you need to do. Putting one foot in front of the other.

We have two choices: embrace and love what we have and feel joy as deeply and fully as we can, and eventually lose everything - or shield ourselves, be miserable...and eventually lose everything.  --Franklin Veayx and Eve Rickert

Here's the thing, even in the most difficult times, your life keeps happening. And while you're plodding through your hard stuff, you still have opportunities to embrace what you love and to feel joy  I know that some of those comments I get about courage are about my positive attitude and my continuing to make art.  Yes, I have crappy, negative, down days.  I had one Wednesday.  And I have days where I stay in bed and watch Gilmore Girls on Netflix all day.  But enjoying life and making stuff are what I do best. One way or another, I'm going to get to the other side of breast cancer treatment. So I can grit my teeth and be miserable all the time or I can take advantage of the good days and laugh and do what I do best. Maya Angelou said that surviving is important,but thriving is elegant. I think it's also courageous. I choose to thrive.  Join me?

You can read more about my journey on my blog Nikkidaisy.